When to have another a baby, or to even have another baby at all? My husband and I have gone back and forth with this idea since my second was about 6 or 7 months old. Now 9 months old, we are really still on the fence. Some days I feel like YES I want another, I want to be pregnant and to have the birth and this new baby and new life, and to make my family that much bigger.
Then there are THOSE days. Those days when I feel like ABSOLUTELY NOT. On THOSE days I feel like, there is no way I want another one, at least not right now. I do well enough to keep my sanity with the two I have sometimes. Everyone is screaming all day, day in day out. Kiara wants what she wants, but won't tell me, she just screams at me and takes me to the general area of what she wants and I have to guess. Keaton wants to be held most of the day and is not afraid to hop in on the scream fest if he doesn't get picked up a.s.a.p..
Then there are the fence days. The days that I think yes I want another one, but am quickly reminded of yesterday when both of my kids were trying their hardest to send me to the looney bin. Back and forth, back and forth I go.
So how do you know? My kids are never going to be perfectly behaved. I don't want a huge age gap in between my kids, but I also don't know that I want to have 3 baby/barely-toddlers all at once. I'm liking the body I have gained, but I also am confident that I can keep from going overboard with weight gain, now that I have learned a lot about health and fitness.
Oh and did I forget to put in that other important factor? Oh yes I must have missed that. WHAT DOES MY HUSBAND THINK?! Well, I really couldn't begin to tell you. He is as back and forth as I am. One day he is like lets do it, lets just do it. I want another baby. I go running to my friendly parenting site to announce to everyone that ok we are going to start TTC, and then the next day or so comes. The next day or so comes, and he says, "I think we should wait awhile." Being a woman, at this point I have already put myself into full TTC mommy I'm so excited for my new baby mode. So this obviously upsets me and I feel like my dreams are being crushed. Okay, okay, that might be a little dramatic, but you get the point.
So when will I know? You're guess is as good as mine. Maybe we will come to a decision and plan accordingly, or maybe two pink lines might just come knocking at our door.
